This probably isn't the right thread to put this in, but I don't know what I'm feeling.

As long as I can remember, I've felt disconnected. I clearly remember asking my mother when I was about three how to be sure that I wasn't in a book (because I didn't feel real). It's most apparent when I'm feeling happy because I feel like I should feel wonderful, but instead I just feel disconnected and vaguely happy. Sometimes, like if I experience something embarrassing, it gets really bad and I feel lightheaded and like I'm floating.

I've made a post before talking about how I feel disconnected from people, but I really feel disconnected from everything (including myself). I'm wondering if this is how everyone feels all the time, because I've never felt any different. I thought my medication would change this, but it hasn't.