I know the feeling oh to well!! I do the same thing. I feel as if I am just watching instead of actually getting involved. My therapist has tried several aproaches to try to get me to talk but I still can't talk about how I am feeling with her. I've been in therapy for 10 months now with the same therapist and I am just now getting comfortable enough to just talk about my problems. I don't tell her how I feel though not unless it's through email. I hope you find a way to break the ice with your therapist!! *hugs* Good luck!!