Hi bluedolphin....My heart goes out to you, it really does. I am the queen of holding on to "glimmers of hope", and I'm here to tell you that it's usually not a good idea. Just a few thoughts from someone who's been there and done that. Of course your heart can still be open to this person, but the truth is that it's not really possible to move forward fully while in any way holding on to the past, or dreams of how you wish things were. I understand the urge to think that maybe some day things might be different, but then again maybe they never will, and you....like all of us....deserve to be cared about and cherished by someone who's "all in" Wishing you the best of luck going forward ~whimsy