3 minutes ago I knew exactly what I was gonna' write here and the words have packed there little alphabet bags and gone somewhere far away!

maybe a couple of them will come back to me?

oh yeah my definition of useless just for me that applies to me from my weird life of everything illness and whatever the hell?

"I seem to know a little bit about everything but not enough about anything!"

I'm now incapable of explaining any further what I mean because I really don't know enough about it!

I just know enough that I used to embrace this as a gift having a wide variety of experiences and knowledge but it's caused me to become a very confused and volatile individual.

I don't even know enough about myself to know why I want to share my definition of useless with anybody why the hell write anything at all why even be?

I guess everything is just a big fat guess?