I know exactly what ur going through. The voices and visions get really extreme sometimes and they tell me to hurt and kill myself and I don't want to die but they won't stop until I've hurt myself in some way. If I don't do it then they will and it hurts a lot less when I do it. Plus they take it so far that I think they'll end up killing me. When they torture me my body goes into shock and I can't move so they continue and there's nothing I can do about it.