Lots Of people have anxiety about Doctors or talking to everyday people. But the situation is YOU need help and to get the help you need to talk to a doctor. Psychiatrists have seen and heard it all , nothing you could say will shock them. If you just cant seem to begin a conversation print out what you posted above and give it to a doctor and they will help you. Many of us gave our opinion that you could be in a Mixed state , we are not doctors , just our opinions. Episodes can go on for weeks or months easily , So please reach out and get some help, you deserve to have a calmer life.