Last night I had a dream about having sexual encounters with a man in a car. The dream basically set the tone for the day and after trying my best to avoid anything to trigger any sexual desire, which is difficult since it is always on my mind, I just had to have this dream.
Waking up from it left me craving it and I don't know what to do, except to try and not do the usual. I've tried looking up help for sex addicts and unhealthy sex fetishes, but found it only worsened the problem. Instead of it helping, it made me want to do it even more. The thought of it is enough to make me want it. It really doesn't take much.
I'm starting to think perhaps I have a problem I never really knew I had. I was always a warm blooded person and I thought it was a good thing since my partner won't complain one day, but at the moment, being single and wanting to wait with such things until marriage it really is becoming a problem. It isn't something I can control. Or I can, but I don't know how.
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