*hugs* I definitely understand feeling like all of that. I tend to berate myself for a while and when I realize it, I go "Your brain is being stupid! Stupid brain!" (seriously, I scold my own brain) and then... I do something that I find relaxing, or I'll put forth the effort to see a friend, or who knows... I just remind myself a lot that those thoughts aren't true even if I FEEL like they're true, and tell myself about some of the good things about me, even if I'm not currently feeling like they're true.