Thank you healingtime4me...
"Pearls before swine" is really just the metaphor for how much time I've wasted accommodating men who didn't appreciate my devotion, love and efforts.
My upbringing was one in which I never felt worthy, always striving for acceptance and approval. This translated into my romantic relationships as well. I have always marveled at women who get exactly what they want...the big diamond ring, the devoted husband, the big house. I always felt I should work and contribute...and I did! Even with this fella to whom I wrote the "amends" letter, there was the element of my not doing "enough."
Since we have communicated off and on for several years now, I thought it appropriate to tell him how things had transpired with me, why I was as I was...then, and how I've evolved.
I'm not going to lose any sleep over his non-response. Nor am I going to go into detail about how he has insulted me in the past. A healthier person would have never engaged in this most recent contact with him.
This is just my own accommodating nature surfacing once again. Time to let that part of myself go, and focus on healthier issues!