Dear T:
Dear Doctor Who Are You, who hides Behind Blue Eyes,
With your accent, wife who works in the same office, I mean seriously who does that anymore?! Why does she stare at me, every time I am in there, like I am threat or something? Well, excuse me, for looking the way I do. Why did you find it appropriate to have my last appointment interrupted by another doctor, a female one, no less, who isn't even your wife, to ask what you thought about a funny little e-mail? And those around, wonder why I stopped treatment with you?
Yeah, the eye gazing. The 'What honor do I bestow your presence in my office', the asking me, 'what do you do for birth control?' in front of my then husband? The 'well, if you'd only changed your first name, you'd be harder to find' comment when I was setting up my next appointment. The let me see those site reactions. The flashing of your wedding band, on your hand, during a routine check up, on my thigh.
Why am I eerily reminiscent of a time in my life 16 years ago, when I am in your presence? I did give out the wrong name, that night of dancing with my friends on a certain March holiday. Why is that guys name, the same as your first name? Is that why she stares and seems to gossip with the other office staff?
(Yes, T, I have things I'd love to share with you, these are just some of them, and funny, it's not even about you, T)
Why T, do I sometimes feel, well watched or followed? T, why did he slam the door in my face, that time I was going to your appointment? Why did I want to cry, but held back?
Why T, did you say, "People Lie", when I was in tears telling you about that online emotional affair that I had and he wouldn't even come to meet me in person?
Dear T, is there something I need to be aware of, if I were to ever share this with you?