Personally, I think you're a gem. You admitted your mistake, and you're trying VERY hard to make up for it.

The fact that your wife LOVES you shows that there IS hope. I doubt that she is "repulsed" by you, because if she really was I don't think she could still love you. How can you love someone that REPULSES you? I don't think you can.

I think she just won't let go of the sight of that porn, and she's going to HAVE to. She probably pictures you doing things like that with other women or something, and she's got to get those visions out of her head. She needs INDIVIDUAL counseling, and if she's not in it, encourage her to go perhaps to a woman therapist who would better understand what's going on in her head.

My ex used to LOVE porn, but the difference with US is that I didn't even LIKE him, let alone love him. He was cruel, abusive and controlling -- so divorce was the only answer.

Keep doing what you're doing, and IF she will go to counseling on her own, I'm sure you two will be okay. God bless and please take care. And let us know from time to time how things are, okay? Hugs, Lee