I never know what the results of my mood will be. Right now I am in a constant state of dread for any upcoming event, even if I know it will probably have a good outcome. Right now I am dreading dinner this evening. I am dreading work tomorrow, and I am dreading dinner with a friend tomorrow evening. I even dread getting on the internet and buying tickets to a concert-why? My sister and her adult daughter want to go with my daughter and me, and I dread the thought of spending a full day with them. My sister is medicated for schizophrenia. She's fine, but I don't like talking about dx's with her.

Just last week, instead of this feeling, I was experiencing feelings of having to get the task at hand over with so I could move on. I was in a state of negative anticipation.

I think all of this is why I want to sit and do nothing, but I am trying to follow the advice of my t.

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