We've been married for 2 years and I'm scared to talk to him about it. Every time I do he shrugs it off and laughs at me and that really hurts my feelings. He's always been there for me when I'm down but not when I'm psychotic. Idk if it scares him or what his deal is. And he tries to act all tough when I ask him how he feels. And I do see a therapist twice a week. I see her again tomorrow but lately she hasn't been taking my seriously either. Its like if I'm not going to kill myself or anyone else it's not important to her. And when I talk to my pdoc all she wants to do is feed me more meds. Idk what to do. I wish the monsters would stop toying with me and just kill me already!