I cannot even begin to imagine what you are going through. The kids are the No. 1 reason I will not give up on my marriage. I do not want them to not have both mom & dad every day. I also do not think I am capable of "sharing" my children. Even if they were to be with dad for one weekend a month, I think I would literally die if my children were not with me for that one weekend. But that's my issue and I'm not trying to make this about me.

You are going through a difficult time that many others have gone through. You will survive but that doesn't mean it will be easy. I am sorry you're celebrating a milestone birthday that will forever be marked by the events of recent months. I wish I could really give you a hug. And buy you a drink