I looooves me some hypomania! I'm all kinds of happy and I get stuff done. Unfortunately, it tends to turn on me sometimes and continue on into a nasty, irritable mania that damages my life in any number of ways.

Recently I came out of my first-ever true mixed episode, and if I never experience another one it'll still be a day too soon. My pdoc calls it 'dysphoric mania', and it SUCKS. For almost two weeks, I was racing around the house and yard, scrubbing the bathroom floorboards with a toothbrush and sobbing uncontrollably. I'd also sit up in bed till 3 AM or even later, staring into the dark and thinking suicidal thoughts---I almost called the crisis line the night before I got smart and called my doctor instead. He doubled up my antipsychotic and that settled me down within days. What a cluster-F that episode was---I really thought I was going crazy.