Being an outside observer, I can say that this is very true and a very accurate statement about the cycles you go through, at least you personally I don't know about the rest of the HPD people. Another thing that I note about you is that you have a hard time making a clean break from people, even the ones that have wronged you. This is just my analysis but I feel like it's because you like to keep your prospects alive regardless of whether they are good for you or not. If at any point they've been one to give you the attention, admiration and focus that you so crave, they will forever remain on your "prospects list". amirite? It's aggravating sometimes to see this, being a person that can actually cut off people at some point and, being bpd, you expect your friends to "cut off" the ones you choose to but then I'm digressing about myself here Kind of leads into a bit of tension

Anyway. dunno if this helps but there it is.