So panicky I'm about to cry. Memories of first psych stay crushing me. Don't have anything left to sew to stay calm. Lost my appetite. Binged this morning until I felt sick but didn't purge because I had to clean the kitchen.

I feel so weak even thinking about going back on my meds, but I can't tell how much of this is withdrawal. I don't even know how much of my dose I should take if I do take them since I haven't taken them in five days and I usually take them in the morning. Almost dinner now. Still not hungry. Didn't have lunch. What do I do?!