I know that my mother never planned to have me when she fell pregnant and that abortion was a solution that she thought through,it is no secret and i dont blame her for thnking it as she was seventeen and unmarried when pregnant with me.I have five other brothers and sisters now and love each of them very mutch,but i know that i have a different father than them all even though theres doesnt live with us anymore also.I feel somehow i dont know,like i could die and it would be ok.im confused i need someone to love me i think altyhoug i have that in frinds i guess im just so lonley im dorry for annoying anyone