Dear T,

Why aren't you jumping all over this?! I kinda hoped we could talk... I've been feeling queasy with anxiety all week. Meditation didn't do much to help, either, I spent most of my time there trying to convince myself I wasn't going to throw up. Then I cried. I am struggling somewhat. I'm hoping that this girl will see the me who has been doing better, not the queasy anxious mess. I'm scared I'll blow it.

You encouraged me (thrice) to contact you, but you haven't replied. I guess I have to learn you aren't always going to be there, no matter what is happening for me? I guess I wasn't clear about my need in my message, to be fair.. and I thought about calling you today, but stopped short. Maybe I should just deal with this on my own. I can't help but wonder if you're tightening boundaries again, after last week, and I just can't even go there with reaching out to you right now.