Dear T,

I told you I wanted to keep certain issues out of our sessions and I meant it! I told you straight away because I worried I'm not strong enough to not let them seep in....and now they've come into therapy and its ruining things I hate this problem, T. And you're sweet to think you can help somehow but I'm telling you, you CANNOT help me with this. It's impossible. I told you it doesn't matter anyway and you disagreed. That's a nice T thing to say, but the fact is it does NOT matter Either way, I'm screwed.

I'm not sure what I want from you and I guess that's at the heart of why I fear you sending me away. I guess I want someone to care. Do you?