I don't blame you for being too afraid to sleep there. Is there a friend's house you can stay at perhaps? Have you called the police? Sorry, don't mean to tell you what to do. I have had my car stolen (twice), but to have your home broken into is whole different story.

Good for you for being able to walk and get the mail today, despite the negative thoughts. I know it's exhausting, but I think you did the right thing. I'll be thinking of you Grace.

Update on me: I called a suicide hotline on Saturday because my suicidal thoughts were overwhelming. I spoke to a very nice woman who really helped me. And that evening my brother drove out to see me and I told him how I was feeling. He was very kind and supportive, as he has been there himself. I stayed at my dad's Saturday and all day today. I had a good time, it was good to see him. So I'm hanging in there. I feel a bit disconnected today though.