So I was having a great time hanging with what I am trying to make my new friends. They know nothing about my addictions. We went to the lake and through around a Frisbee and enjoyed the nice weather. When we got back into the car they started talking about how no one has to work tomorrow so we should stay up late and just drink, drink, drink. Let me tell y'all... I am already uncomfortable with these friends (I just met them and I am trying to get to know them) so adding alcohol on top of it all was too much for me too handle. I freaked **** in the car. Not out loud but silently to myself and through texts to a close friend. I was on the verge of tears.

Why do I feel that it is so hard to have a normal life? I feel so left out when everyone is drinking and I am just... there. Does anyone else struggle with this? I mean I had to loose all my "friends" because of my addiction and building new ones has sucked...royally.