I honestly don't know how I'm going to survive 2 1/2 more months in this house before going back to school. My parents just continue to get on my nerves. My dad's dumb little jokes don't make me laugh anymore, and I often find them incredibly annoying. He's noticed that and yet he still keeps doing them, and tries to make me feel bad for not finding him funny. My parents are starting to notice that I behave differently, but I don't think they suspect that I've been feeling depressed and I don't think I'm ready to tell them.

I haven't contacted that guy since Saturday evening. This is the longest I've gone without having any contact with him at all since February, when we first started texting. I told myself that I was going to stop contacting him for a little while to try and give myself time to sort out some of my feelings. But all this lack of contact has done is raise more questions. I still have so much more I want to ask him. I think I'm going to just give in and text him tomorrow evening (Well, technically this evening since it's after midnight here, haha). We've both agreed that we still want to be friends so I figure I have nothing to lose at this point.