Hi "Falling" ~ I have to agree with Shezbut. Something must be triggering this negativity.

Is there any way you can get into therapy? This would really help you not only now, but in the future. Negative thoughts can hurt you in all kinds of ways, not just in relationships, but in work situations, in dealings with family/friends, etc.

Therapy is a great way to learn how to get rid of these things, and/or learn how to cope with them. If there's something in your past that's causing it, therapy helps you put THAT to rest too. I've been thru therapy, and it surely helped me.

Your medical doctor can refer you to a good therapist. He would know the best one for you.

I wish you the very best. Keep posting, and also let us know what happens, IF you go into therapy, okay? God bless and take care. Hugs, Lee