Hi All,

Do any of you guys find yourself picking up the pieces and in a real mess after a manic episode? I am not a happy manic, more like irritated, hateful, paranoid, delusional, and obsessive. I've managed to piss off about half of AA in a month, fire my sponsor, gossip to everyone who'd listen, obstruct sponsor/sponsee relations, and basically involve myself in everyone else's business.

My husband can't stand to be around me and is seeping on the couch. So now that I'm coming down I can see all the damage in retrospect. Major depression is heading my way. I'm waking at 4 am, isolating, self-loathing - all that fun stuff.

It drives me crazy or should I say crazier that pdoc's want me to recognize the warning signs of mania. When I'm in it, I most honestly believe ppl are out to get me, talking and conspiring about me, my husband is cheating, and I am a grandious being. It's only in retrospect that I see where I've caused damage and acted totally irrational.