I never knew others had this 'dreadful anticipation' thing going on. I am dreading spending the day with my son, the long drive...even though I love him very much. It makes no sence but I want it over with so I can stay safe in my comfort zone. I dread future social engagements with my sister in law and her family, I dread the late afternoon. I'm a morning person and always feel normal and energetic and stable until around 3pm. I dread two phone calls I have to make today. It's so silly but it's real.

It sounds like you all are jumping through these self imposed hurdles. And I am proud of you too. It gives me encouragement to jump across my own. Good to know I'm not the only one.