The roller coaster is fun, while is going up, but not fun at all when I'm coming down....
I'm so tired of this.
I'm trying my best to manage, but the feelings of guilt and failure seem not to go away ever....
I'm just hoping for a better tomorrow, I did that yesterday, and nothing happened; I'm hoping maybe tomorrow is the day, but again, what do I do when I see that things aren't gettting better.
I'm starting to freak out a little bit, becuase I'm seeing somethings inside of me that have not explanation, no memory whatsoever, but How do I find out what exactly happened that left me to be this way???
I don't know, if there is a God, I need Him right now badly~