I can sympathize with your families lack of reaction. Recently the few times I have cut and my wife saw, she didn't mention it or even acknowledge. Not that I was trying to get attention from her, and I even tried to hide it out of shame, but it is hard thing to hide from a spouse. It almost feels like when the people you care about, dont show it back, you just want to open the floodgates and spiral downward. Just because they don't show that they are concerned doesn't mean that it doesn't matter to them. Some people don't know how to process it just pretend like it is that bad, or try to care because they don't know what to do.

A couple weeks ago I was talking to my wife and the subject came up, and she felt like it was her fault. That made her want to throw her hands up and give up on things. I think she cares, she just doesn't know what to do about it or how to help.

I don't know the answer for her. With the recent problems in my marriage and trying to learn how to better cope with depression, it just feels to much. I want to self harm a lot, but I try my best to stop myself. I know that it may make me feel better in the short term, it doesn't deal with any problems and I will just feel worse later.

I am not saying you are wrong for cutting and that you should never do it again. It is just a way to cope with emmotional pain that is too overwhelming to deal with. I think it takes work and determination to start to deal with problems that make you want to self harm, and to get your life into a place you want it to be. I hope you can get into therapy or something and start to work on yourself and find better ways to cope. I find it helpful to talk things out with my therapist and that I can be honest without fear of upsetting her or feeling like I need to hide things, like you do with family memebers and friends.