Hello I hope you are feeling better. Being sober just means that you have the ability to focus on the things that yo need to do to make your life more prosperous in the future. The first step is to get a counselor/therapist to help you deal with lifes issues, to stay sober, and safe with your mental health. Sobriety is a big step in the right direction and getting the help that you need to stay sober is not failing it is heroic and commendable. I hope that you have a long time committment to sobriety, and you feel better soon. Take care Sincerely Soidhonia