If you're not ready to give it to T, you don't have to. Just because you're holding it in your hand doesn't mean that you can't give it to the goat for breakfast, the one that hangs out in your T's lobby and eats all the stuff clients want to ditch before they go in for session.

What, your T's lobby or waiting room doesn't have a goat? You can just hang onto it. Your choice.

I have found that it is impossible to freak out after I've taken three deep, yoga breaths-- you know, breathe in through your nose with the tip of your tongue on the top of your mouth, hold for three, exhale out your mouth for three.