Update: Feeling less despair, haven't exactly reached hopefull yet, but resillience is on the rise...

Even when I don't want to, I'm strategizing...

I'm thinking once the deed is in mom's name, I'm going to purposely ensure that I'm broke for months on end so that the house is paid up (With my salary from my future job I'm visualizing).

Then I wash my hands and make plans to move.

If Gary's job turns out to be permanent he will definitly move and if I do too, mom will be forced to finally accept sister's offer and move into a flatlet on her property.

The house's earnings can be split 3 ways or mom can rent it out and add an income to her pension.

On a good note, my lovelife has never been better. Funny how we've loved eachother since we were children and things are only falling into place now. More than 10 yrs later! Definitly worth the wait tho Guess even though it was hell on earth, we both did alot of growing up while spending last year apart, and are better equipped to be together.

Haha our usual MO is I chase him off after 3 months (intentionaly or not), we have now reached the 6 month mark for the first time without any chasing or running for the first time in 4yrs Some kinda milestone I'm guessing...