At some point today I failed trying to stay away from anything sexual and I looked at lesbian porno pictures. I really thought I was going to be able to stay away from it, yet today, I failed. I don't know what to do. Last night I went into a chatroom trying to have phone sex with men, which to some extent I did until I had to leave the computer. I felt bad about it. Some point in me wonders if I don't need love and that is why I do it. Sex is by no means love.