Have you shared all of this with your T? Are you afraid of telling your T about what you think is going on because she will brush it off? It sounds like you know that there is something going on with you that you need help with, but that maybe you are afraid to articulate and put it out there? It sounds like you doubt yourself, which can be a huge indicator of being invalidated at a young age (not saying this is fact, just a possibility). What kind of therapist do you see? Can you write everything down and give it to your therapist to read? If she brushes you off, it may be time to find someone else. Keep us posted