Dark Heart x, I am sorry to hear everything that you've been though. It sounds very painful. I've don't have auditory or hallucinations now (had a few while I was in it). I'm also worried about my cognitive functioning, especially my speaking and thinking ability. I feel like, a lot doesn't come to mind like it use to. I hope you can see a doctor soon to help you out. What happened when you were on abilify? My doctor just changed me to that over saphris. I was in psychosis for a few weeks and I feel like it messed me up pretty bad, I can't get a grip on 5 years. My thoughts are with you. Good luck and remember every day that you wake up is a present from the guy above. Make the best of present even in times of turmoil.