I wanted to add that I know the gentlemens for over 3 years and just began to take it to the next level; not pick up some strangers. All three of them are old friends that i have developed good friendships and knowledge of. I slept with them though. There has been about three years of true friendship with Paul, three years of great conversations and laughing with Will and one year of time well conversed over much coffee with Larry. I eventually had sex with them but it was good and there was a great bond going on much long before, I just don't want to be "his girl exclusevy" because I know I'm bipolor, have sleep problems, eating problems, mania at times all on my worst days, but deserve to be a humanbeing and enjoy myself and not feel low class because I won't settle down. As long as I use proper Std care, i ought to be ok. I have not patronized any of them with phoney "I love you's" I won't be a fake. I won't be a codependant any more. I want to be happy and don't want to be ordered around and know with my permeant condition emotionally, this is best for me. I don't feel like a cheap ***** or immoral. I genuinely see each man's beauty (and FLAWS, but that's reality) I don't fight with them because I leave too soon. [i can always go back when i have a better less manic day]