I can definitely relate. I refer to it sometimes as carrying around a "dull rage" all the time. I have terrible road rage! But sometimes driving helps--not in town with heavy traffic where I might just be more infuriated, but out in the country. I listen to music, sometimes angry but sometimes not; I scream at the top of my lungs. THAT helps me a great deal.

I work in an office and have a quiet little desk off to myself. Some days it takes every morsel of strength I have to control my anger at the tiniest things irritating me. Like the sound of the phone ringing, how ridiculously slow my computer is, the tone of someone's voice on the phone. I have to get up from my desk, go outside, and will usually smoke a cigarette but that isn't a recommendation.

I know the feeling you describe, though, wanting to destroy something because nothing else seems sufficient to release all the rage you have at that moment. I have broken a few cell phones, computer mouse, etc. I wish I could be more destructive without actually breaking my own stuff or hurting someone/myself by accident.

I fantasize about going out to a junk yard and smashing car windows with a baseball bat or throwing glass vases or throwing bricks into television sets. Then sometimes I wish someone would pick a fight with me, throw the first punch, so I could beat the crap out of them, but it never happens and I am a pacifist by nature so it isn't likely that any of this will ever surface so it just simmers under my skin and makes it impossible to concentrate.

So, I don't know what to tell you. I'm working on this myself. I hope you find some calm and figure out how to deal with it better than you are now. Good luck, friend.

-K