that become big ones... ugh. I have not told my family about the recent si. I also lied to my T about the availability of my preferred tool... I gave the impression that it is not all that easy to get to, when really it is quite easy... I was upfront about telling him that I am not ready to give it up just yet... It is in fact in another room at the bottom of a box that I have to move things in order to get to, but it's a small box and light things that are easy to move... I know I should have told him the truth, but I was afraid that he would then insist I get rid of it... and I'm just not there yet again.
It was bad enough that I answered some questions in journal form with complete honesty... I am not yet ready to give up my "security blanket"... Knowing me, I will tell him friday that I lied about how easy it is to get to...
I always worry about people's opinion of me changing, so I don't tell them what's really going on inside... then I lie about things or do not divulge info, and they change their opinion of me anyway... I need to work on this.