I'm afraid I have pushed your limits. I'm sorry I am a bother. Do you see what I mean about my mom? I don't know if I'm ready for change, because I feel like I need more support through it, but I don't feel like I can ask you for it... please hate me? It would make this all much easier. Please yell at me and be everything I fear/expect so I can affirm all the fears in my head... I really am that broken.