High levels of anxiety are horrible. I hate that feeling of jumping out of my skin or that I'm just almost about to run down the street screaming. At times like that, I take some anti-anxiety medicine to take the edge off the anxiety and bring it down to a level where I can work on it. Do you have any anti-anxiety meds to help you deal with the current crisis? If you go back on your regular meds, you'll probably find that you feel better.

I hear ya on not wanting to be dependent on meds. I would much rather not take meds. But the alternative is to live a life of extreme misery and flat-out disability. No thanks. I'll take the meds.

I hope you feel better soon. You sound calmer now.