I saw my therapist today. She says I have been too busy putting life jackets on everyone else and haven't bothered putting mine on. She doesn't understand that is my problem. That is what I want to get back to. I want to get back to being the one that was strong enough on her own, to put everyone's life jackets on them, without needing one for myself. That is who I have always been. I can't stand being this person that has to have a lIfe jacket just to be capable enough to sit on the shore.