Now, with some annoyances gone - basically back to what has been "familiar" for years, so it could be better, but can deal with it - I seem to be able to think at least a bit better....
Either way I have tried to get actual diagnosis other than just GED (I know about it, but also know there is more - there has to be)...More in the hopes that doc would see what I think I do, but I know it's silly, but have a rough time point blank mentioning - it's hard even posting it, and I doubt anyone is going to trace a post online back to me personally, unless I know you, and told you - no not impossible, but no one would go through all that trouble unless it was REAL important for some reason.
Farther, explains why I really don't think that drugs is the real answer anyway, and if so, a SMALL part I believe....
All so, no diagnostic test, but quite a few "general idea" type tests confine this thought....
You see - umm - I really don't think mentally I am even close to cough up to physical age. Any unofficial test of that type - well let's just say if it were physical age, I would still be in school!
Thing is - that DOSE seem about right to me, and have a good idea it would be because of what I lived with as a kid - no type of abuse or anything like that, but it was a very f***** up situation. (one of the more mild things was at 16 playing referee between my mother, her boyfriend, and a third party he bought in to the house - but it was owned by my mother, but they both....-Well, you get the idea I hope!, and like I said, that was one of the more tame things I put up with!)