I can definitely relate. I've been dealing with increasingly difficult rage issues for a long time. Luckily, I can keep control of it 99/100 times, but when I can't it looks like a bomb went off in the room. Then I just feel like an A-hole for terrifying anyone that happened to be in earshot and for breaking stuff that wasn't always mine...

I find that music, playing or just listening, really helps me a lot. Pretty much anything that requires a lot of concentration to enjoy. I just wish I could concentrate on my real responsibilities like that, haha.

I've been diagnosed with PTSD which is probably responsible for some of the worsening of my dilemma, but after some heavy self-reflection, I am deathly afraid that I have developed some kinda of bipolar like behavior. Unfortunately, that could mean the end of a successful (so far) career if anyone were to find out that I was positively diagnosed with BPD. Total bummer...