After searching many websites, I think I have OCD and I am so scared and confused. My problem is that I picture myself harming my son. I have thought about it a lot and I think that I feel so responsible for his safety, that I picture the worst things I could do to him, and then obsess over it. I get so scared that I am going to hurt him. I am afraid to be alone with him at times, which is hard because I am a stay at home mom. I picture other stupid things too, like throwing my brand new cell phone out the car window, swirving my car into others on the interstate, hitting pedestrians with my car. When we go on trips, I always think that either I will die, or the house will burn down, but either way, things won't be the same when we return. But the most disturbing images are of me hurting my son in the most disgusting ways. I am a good mom and worry about him choking or when he has the sniffles. How can I want to protect him from everything but picture myself harming him at the same time? It is so confusing. I feel like I am the only one with these struggles. Is there anyone else out there? I have been talking to a couselor and just recently told her about all this. She is arranging for me to get a psych evaluation and most likely meds. I am scared. I don't want anyone to know about this. I want someone to tell me that even though I picture myself doing these things to my son, that I won't. No one has said that yet. I feel guilty of things I haven't even done. My images are like they already happened when I know they didn't. Now that my secret is out, (to my hubby and couselor) I feel so exposed and think even more about it than before... not really the images but what this means about me. Please help.