Oh yes, I see, where you are viewing this from now...

no, just because we become adults, older, wiser? doesn't mean we can become God. We cannot rule the world or cause only good things to happen in life.

Yes, from your perspective, I see what you mean.

I'm sorry you have had such troubles.

When we are adults, though, we do NOT have to succumb to the whim and rule of others over us. There is a different price to pay, but it doesn't have to be our wellbeing. When a child, we didn't even know for sure what was right or wrong, and thus relied upon all-too-often adults who were so wrapped up in their own problems and ills, didn't teach us correctly.

When we are adults, we can read and think for ourselves. We have choices. We do. Sometimes we get so wrapped up in what life is doing TO us, we forget we can DO something about it.

When we are adults we can say NO. We can also say yes. We can reason things out usually, and realize that the "way life treats us" isn't personal. Bad things happen. (I have my own perspective about why.)

When we were children, we just knew bad things happened! As adults we can find the real reason why, make the best of it, even prevent much of it from affecting us...

But control it? No. No on the outside. But when we are adults, we can learn to control life on the inside. We can be at peace with what happens in life. We can decide to allow it to change us, or not...and if that change is good or bad.

I don't say any of this to put you down or blame you for feeling the way you might. Shoot, anyone who's been here awhile knows I struggle along side you. I, too, as a child, always knew things would be different when I was a grown up. I'm still learning how different I can make them.

The philosopher in me caused this post... and I approve. heheheh

Hope you feel better soon.


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