Thanks for your reply BipolaRNurse!

I created this post earlier today and was literally refreshing the BP forum page all day in hopes someone would reply :/ I guess I need to keep it "short and sweet" haha. I tend to write A LOT... too much sometimes for most people to care to read about

PS: I used to want to be a nurse I actually got my AA in liberal arts: emphasis in biomedical sciences (because I took all the pre-reqs: anatomy, physiology, microbiology, chemistry, etc for nursing). I actually worked at my local hospital all of last year as a unit secretary and absolutely hated it and decided you couldn't pay me enough to be a nurse! The hours were long (12 hour shifts, sometimes back to back!) the staff was lacking, (not enough nurses per patient), you had like a million people to report to (the nurses who patient's call lights I was in charge of, the charge nurse for the day, the director of the dept, the head nurse for the hospital for the day, the CEO, etc) Plus everyone always had a bad attitude... and on top of all that all the nurses would ever do was gossip and complain and gossip and complain till I wanted to explode. "Omg guess what so and so's husband got caught doing" or "Omg I'm so annoyed I didn't sleep last night and why do I have to have this shift" or "Omg you're never going to believe what I heard about dr so and so" or "omg my patient is so whiney and weird".... you get the idea. Sometimes they were very mean to me too... they would act as though I was almost "sub human" than them because I didn't have my ADN. I was never felt as though I was appreciated even though my job was VERY demanding (I would have to call drs, fax papers, receive faxes, file papers, answers the phone, answer call lights, answer the intercom (our unit was locked), call maintenance when equipment wasn't working, call IT when the computer wasn't working, call for lab, send labs, walk patients & get them set up in their room upon arrival, etc etc etc etc etc! AYE, sorry... lol... I'm frustrated just thinking about how much I did for my unit and how crappy they treated me :/ I'm also upset because my experience working in the hospital ruined my dream of being a nurse.