Sometimes, especially after doing the job for many years, I feel ashamed of my profession. I agree there are some really awful therapists out there - usually the ones who think they are ok and their clients aren't, when really their clients are more ok than them. I never cease to be shocked by the harm that is caused by therapists who don't get it. However, there are many who are good - and I believe they are the ones who know they are f***ed up too, only they did alot of work on it.

I too was hurt by an incompetent therapist who hadn't done her own work. I learned from it, I learned from my pain, I learned from my client's - and I believe I understand something that is more likely to mean I am a safe therapist. I'm not perfect because I am human, but I do ok. If I can do it, then there are others out there who can too. Don't lose hope, you can find the right one - but I think it is important to interview the therapist and ask questions that can give you an idea of safety. Don't ever just trust they are ok because they have a qualification - that doesn't mean alot.
I understand you hating therapists at the moment - I would do too if I was in your place. Speak out your rage and you will come to a calmer place.

Take care - you are in great pain.

Moon