Dear T.
Thanks for the extra session today, i am glad you could fit me in. Sometimes your patience and empathy for me makes me angry and annoys me. I don't know why, maybe we can work it out together?
I feel like i don't deserve your niceness, and that it's wasted on me, and i wan't you to collude with the beliefs i have about myself, that i am a horrible nasty person. When you don't collude with those beliefs, it makes me feel uncomfortable.

I think i am going to write this out and take it to our session this afternoon.