Hi cleo

I am sorry that you feel so badly. But again, please remember that it is the depression that makes everything seem so negative. I'd bet that you could have a billion people lined up to express their love for you and you would still feel alone and unloved. That's what depression does.

The goal of treatment should be to help lift the cloud of darkness so that you can see the people that love you. More importantly you will learn to love yourself. Without that, the love of others is insignificant, with that, your happiness doesn't ebb and flow based on the attention you are getting from others.

You are a remarkable person who does deserve to be loved by others, and more importantly deserves to love yourself.

At risk of sounding like a broken record... whatever reasons you have that treatment will not provide what you need, doing nothing will MOST ASSUREDLY not provide what you need, whatever that is and whatever you think that may be.

Please seek some help, you deserve it as you deserve to feel better about yourself and your life. Good luck.

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