bpd huh? borderline....

it's like you have a perspective and it changes the way one looks at everything, affecting all the decisions and actions that ya can make. but that perspective changes, and no matter how much one tries to hold on to it, to keep that perspective it changes and one gets lost and makes terrible decisions and then another perspective comes, but it is dramatically different but we go with it and suddenly we are a different person, again... and again...

but you have to hold on to it when it comes, lest you be lost... again.

ugh... borderline

everchanging suffering it puts a person through. I've noticed that sometimes one knows that their perspective is wrong but has to hold onto it anyways out of survival. and that the one thing that a person can hold onto is the fact that nothing is going to stay the same. that everything is everchanging and that trusting in ANYTHING is a mistake.

Sorry for the rant. borderline is just so hard to describe.