You are only 14 years old and an on-line psych forum of mostly adults is probably not the best activity at your age. Consider volunteering at school. Often there are groups that work to support other students. My son volunteers in a group to help severely handicapped students. My other son is in a group that works to educate students about bullying others and works to create programs of support and intervention for students in his school. Find an age-appropriate outlet for helping others. You haven't "heard everything" as much as you think you have, and you might be exposed to some things here that really aren't fully appropriate for a young teen.